2017

Road of Obedience

Of course, I’m on another date with Jesus. Today was just chill: Walmart and Subway. But I am not going to lie, I have been in pain today.  I’ve talked it out with him and he said as long as I eat healthy, the pain will eventually go away.

Throughout the week, there has been this one thought coming in my mind: BOYS, BOYS, BOYS. For some reason, guys have been on my mind frequently. Especially the good-looking guy I previously talked about in a previous blog.

I keep on asking Jesus to remove him and shield my eyes from the lust that my flesh is doing. My flesh wants to look at him constantly. But the Holy Spirit is helping me turn away from it. It is such a struggle but it will be worth it when I set my eyes on the right man I should date and marry.

I’ve been so stubborn about that subject and the fact that I can’t tell my parents about how God wants me to go to a particular seminary and also the time to go to that seminary. God did call me out that I was stubborn about my disobedience. Through Zechariah 7:11-14, He had definitely called me out for not doing what I should had done last week. I’ve been beating myself up this past week about it, but today I am calling my parents and telling them everything. Please pray for me.

Another thing you can be praying for me about is my physical health. My legs and knees are wearing out, I have had tingling in my arms and legs, chest pains, and my kidneys have been acting really weird. Of course, Jesus has said to me that I should be eating healthy so there is no more pain in my body. He was so serious that he said no junk food at all. Of course, this is going to be really hard.

Jesus has such a sense of humor. He calls me out yet again in Subway as I randomly flip to my favorite chapter in Lamentations.

“but, though he cause grief, he will have compassion according to the abundance of his steadfast love; for he does not afflict from his heart or grieve the children of men.” Lamentations 3:32. He’s still mad at me because of my disobedience, but He still has compassion and patience over me. The pain is only temporary, so all I have to do is obey the path He has for me.

“The heart of man plans his way, but the LORD establishes his steps.” Proverbs 16:9

Love, Annie

 

This article is so powerful. This is how we should perceive dating Jesus at all times.

https://www.theodysseyonline.com/how-god-dates

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2017

Looking Back ‘Cos He Provides: Part II

Over the past two weeks it has been so hectic. This past week at the camp we had a massive celebration for the Fourth of July. Full of streamers. Full of cooking food and cleaning the kitchen. Full of surprises that the Lord has been placin’ in my life within the past two weeks. 

First, the Lord gave me a confirmation about where to go for seminary. At the very tail end of reading Haggai,  Jesus gave me Haggai 2:14 as the answer to my prayers for the past 10 months.

“Is the seed yet in the barn? Indeed, the vine, the fig tree, the pomegranate, and the olive tree have yielded nothing. But from this day on I will bless you.”  In the study notes I have in my Bible, the late-summer harvest of those essential crops fits well with the late-December date. This is significant in my life because the Lord randomly told me in late December that I should pursue Women’s Ministry. When I came to the realization that these connected, I started crying. Like I said, I have been praying about this for about 10 months. My heart was so joyful. This whole verse exemplifies how their are blessings through obedience. 

I am now in the book of Zechariah and the Lord has brought to my attention the exact hurt I was dwelling in. I came across Zechariah 4:7, and the Lord told me that my hurt would be cut down to size. In this study note, it talks about how a practical obstacle (the great mountain of difficulties) will be cut down to size. For me, the obstacle is my leftover hurt. It ALREADY has been cut down to size. Something happened to me today that cut down the hurt. Only a mustard seed of hurt is left. Praise Him!!!!

  Jesus is freaking amazing, if you did not know that! I now feel free and am able to trust people again. 🙂 

Much Love, 

Annie

{Sarah}

 

 

 

2017

Looking Back ‘Cos He Provides

Today has been another grand date with Jesus. We went to Walmart, Chick-Fil-A, flea-market shopping (I only went to one cos he knows flea markets and thrift stores are my weakness; He keeps me accountable), and laundry. And now I am at Starbucks with Him as I am writing this blog. 

I’m going to be honest with yall and myself even though I do not want to. At the camp I work at, I think someone is really attractive. The reason I didn’t want to share it is because I don’t want to catch myself liking this dude. 

I don’t want to because I have realized at the laundry mat I’m still hurt for everything I’ve been through in the past year and a half. I was listening to a country song called “Legends” by Kelsea Ballerini. The lyrics, “we were crazy, tragic, and epic and so amazing. I’ll always wear the crown that you gave me. we will always stay lost in forever and they’ll remember we were legends”  and “like we were written down in permanent marker not even the brightest sun could ever fade; come whichever hell or high water, it was always me and you either way” left me thinking about the past relationship. We were both hurt in the worst ways. Before my rededication, I always questioned why we went through the things we did. 

Honestly, now, I see the questioned question marks I left on my life back then as answers that have been perfectly left in the pile to be untouched by me. It’s all been covered up by grace that Jesus has left me. 

“The silver is mine; the gold is mine, declares the LORD of hosts.” Haggai 2:8

This verse has become my favorite because silver and gold is precious in the eyes of my Lord God. I also see in the verse that he holds everything that he owns including my past and future. To be quite honest (again), I have been freaked out about financial decisions about what will happen to me after I graduate college. I want to apply for an internship in Colorado, want to go get seminary credits at the Kanakuk Institute, and go to seminary, eventually. It is a great amount to do within 16 months. I’m terrified that I can’t do it all because of money. I could start crying at Starbucks right now. Yall pray for me. 

I take a deep breath and let it go. It’s easier said than done. I still have a ways to go, but I have hope and will be calling on Jehovah-Jireh to make it through. 

With Love,  Annie 

Reveal:

Ladies, I love how Jesus is working through me in Missouri and through this blog. My name: Sarah Davis. I am in love with coffee, chicken and pancakes, golden retrievers, flea markets, thrift shops, traveling, and inspiring others daily through the wisdom and knowledge that Jesus gives me. 

 

 

2017

Looking Back For The Right Reasons

Setting of the day: I’m at an Arby’s in Branson, Missouri on a date with Jesus. This day has been so chill and beautiful just talking with Him and making regular decisions like I would every day. I would advise intimately dating Jesus NOW. 

For the past week: I have been doing this study in Haggai for the past 8 days. The Lord has been showing me some mind-blowing stuff lately. In chapter one verse four, it says how the people were not wanting to rebuild the temple of the LORD, because they did not feel like it since they refused to listen to the LORD. Sometimes we feel like that when we don’t listen to God when we are in a sticky situation. We are all stubborn to the core. Imagine yourself wanting to watch Netflix instead of climbing a mountain that is only 15 minutes away. But the Lord is whispering to you, you should. You know the hike is worth it when you are on the top, because the view is breathtaking. 

We can’t just sit and wait for something to be given to us. We have to get off our butt and go for what we desire. Also in Haggai, I am reminded of verse fourteen where God stirs up the spirits of the people to rebuild the temple. In the study note about verse 14, it portrays how God gives them an intense desire to work to repair His house.

Lately, God has been showing me the word intimacy. My boss has been talking about the relationship intimacy with the Lord. I really never knew what it meant until she explained it to me and my fellow co-workers. To be truly intimate with Jesus Christ as my Savior, God, and Lord, I have to be truly intentional and sexually intimate with Him. The definition of intimate as an adjective is private and personal. Our relationship with Him should be so intimate it is intense. I love it so much. 

One situation that has been coming to my mind a lot lately is a falling-out I had with this friend back in November. I had this conviction to write her a letter and give it to her. I remember writing the letter and crying so much, because I simply did not want to. As I was reading the history and facts about Haggai, the theme for the book is restoring the Lord’s house by the people of God will mediate God’s presence. At first, I did not know the definition of mediate, so I had to look it up. The definition is intervening between people in a dispute in order to bring about an agreement or reconciliation. The situation I was in left me devastated and left my ex-boyfriend pissed about what went down. I see how Christ intervened to show me I did not have to have a relationship with this girl anymore. 

Jesus has revealed Haggai to me for several reasons. Especially in chapter one verse four, the Lord shows me that I was stuck in my personal dwelling to fix the problem. I was so focused on repairing relationships then and in the past. The conviction I had to write the letter was God’s way of telling me to not choose my way, instead it was His redemption than my personal comfort. The Lord gives instruction in chapter one verse five to ponder our actions and see the results of the experience. The result I see within myself is the stronger person I am with my flesh and my relationship with Christ. 

Over everything, His redemption is greater than our personal comfort. 

With Love, 

Annie

 

 

2017

Hurting For His Glory 

I’m sweaty. I’m sticky. I’m getting a weird sunburn from sitting at a certain angle. I just feel gross. But a few hours later, my feet are hurting because I’m standing on them not moving a muscle. My nerves in my legs are yelling ‘Sit Down.’ There’s a pain in my right ankle that was killing me. I really didn’t care because I was standing in a gym of 500-600 college students that work at all of the camps. We were all just not giving a care in the world of HOW we were praising Jesus in worship. All hands were lifted in some sort of fashion. I was literally crying of the overwhelming sensation of every person in that gym that had the LOVE of Jesus Christ. Heck, I cried multiple times because it was so, so beautiful. I could not stop crying. I cried during the sermon the speaker was giving that night. I was filled with a mass amount of emotion for these people. It was just so dang beautiful. That was one day during our training week. 


This past week was a lot of pain physically. My ankles felt like mud. My legs felt like needles from one sharp pain to another. Just yesterday, I was crying about how much pain was in within my legs as a whole, especially in my right leg. 

But God shows just how big he is through the people I work with when someone is hurting. One of the acts of service was that the kitchen staffers prayed for me, this other guy prayed for me at the Friday picnic, and the rest of the kitchen staff were giving me bear hugs. But the one memory that tops the cake is one of my girls from my adopted cabin wanted my contact information because she wants to talk to me about Jesus and life. It makes my heart overflow and swarm with desire to grow my ministry. 

It’s not about the heat. It’s not about pain. It’s not about what we’re doing on the weekends. It’s not about what man thinks about what we’re doing. It’s about the hearts that need saving from the one who abundantly chases after us, the one who wants our hearts and lives to be like his for his glory. 

Love, Annie 

P.S. I may reveal my real name at the end of the month 😎 

2017

Holding a Yearning For My Identity

Since I have been at this camp, I have learned a lot already.

  1. To get SUPER MAD CRAZY HYPE!
  2. Fitting in is not that hard
  3. Washing dishes is actually soothing when you have anxiety

At first, I thought I would not fit in because I am the whitest girl you will ever meet. I have basic and weird dance moves. I like my Starbucks at least once a week. And I have to have my Strawberry Limeade from Sonic at least 2-3 times a week.

But of course, I need my Jesus every day. When I got to the camp, I knew only one person, my best friend, from my school but I can’t see her since she works at the sister camp I’m working at. Sad day, sad summer. That’s another thing I’m adjusting to: not seeing her until (maybe) on the weekends. I know I’m going to ambush her every time I see her.

I was reminded today of this verse: “O LORD, make me know my end and what is the measure of my days; let me know how fleeting I am!” Psalm 39:4

We went to a church today and the pastor talked about how we are just a speck on this earth, just barely a dot within a timeline. If we were to touch about 300-500 people with the Gospel of Christ. It just blows my mind completely. I was in complete awe. Growing up I always felt like I was worthless and not good enough to make anyone to be my friend.

Ever since I rededicated my life, I have found myself happier since I find my true everlasting identity in Christ.

I say all this to say we should have never ending energy when it comes to being our true selves. No matter how low or high we may feel, we need to feel that yearning for the Lord God. No matter what we are doing, we do it with all of our being and doing it for the One who gives our breath in our lungs.

Weekly Reminder:

“In him all things hold together.” Colossians 1:17

 

Much Love,

Annie

2017

One Blindfold At A Time

My room is a mess.

The reason why is because I am preparing to travel to a job in Missouri. I leave tomorrow and I am so excited. But I’m also so apprehensive.

I’ll be 7 hours away from home. I only get to have my phone on our one off day. The scariest part is I don’t know where this job will lead me after the summer is over. I have no clue how God is going to use the opportunity to strengthen my character and my relationship with Him.

I have always been on edge if I don’t know where my next step is going to be. This is one of those steps. It’s a giant leap of faith. REALLY giant for me.

I’m reminded that “Do not be afraid” is written 365 times in the Bible. The phrase is always appropriate when I or someone is anxious about a life goal or decision. The summer is screaming at me, “You have made a mistake. You should be with your family. You should take care of Memaw and Papaw. You should be with your friends. Maybe you didn’t have to break up with your ex-boyfriend.”

But the Lord keeps whispering in my heart, “Why are you fearful? What I have for you is what you can’t fathom. It far exceeds your plan. My plan is so much better than yours. Do NOT BE afraid. I will be with you 75 days of the most incredible experience of your life.”

“Take heart; It is I. Do not afraid.” Matthew 14:27. Jesus reminds the disciples in this passage to not be afraid, because he is the one that is walking upon the water. He is the one that holds their emotions in that moment. He holds and controls the way the water moves and our hearts to feel the closeness of his Holy Spirit. For me, I clasp on to my chest and figuratively take my heart out of my chest. I take my heart and throw it up in the air. I do this, because it is my way of giving it all to God. To get rid of the burden I have in THIS moment.

My moment now is my state of mind of the unknown for the future. I take it and throw it in the air and let out a full gasp of air.

“For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us.” Romans 8:18

I think God laughs at me sometimes because of the stupid stuff I do to get ahead of the game. He pulls me back in to put me back in my place. In those moments, I realize I think ahead and don’t think of what I have now. I always try to see the things God will reveal in his glorious future but that’s where he reins me back in. He puts the blindfold back on me and reveals to me very little at a time.

The blindfold is my worst enemy but also my best friend. I want that sneak peek but scared of what comes with it, whether it is bad or good. Now, I just want to be surprised.

I now keep that blindfold on for the sake of not spoiling the good parts and even the bad parts. I want my life to be a surprise.

I want my summer to be a surprise. I want my senior year of college to be a surprise. I want my future jobs to be a surprise. I want my love story to be a surprise. I want to meet my Maker and King with a joyful surprise.

 

From a joyful heart

Much Love,

Annie